In the gutter

A few weeks ago I wrote about how things were getting tough for Jeff at his company (he owns it with his business partner). They had to lay all of their employees off. I know this felt like such a huge failure for the guys. They've worked so hard since 2003 to make this company what it is and now it's like going back to square 1. Jeff has been quiet lately and I know that the weight of the world is on his shoulders. Sales are not happening and things are not looking good. I don't know what this means for us. To say I am scared is quite the understatement. Jeff has an amazing way with business and I know that whatever happens we will come out on top again but for now I'm so afraid. I feel helpless in helping my own family.

Tonight my parents arrive and will be visiting for a week. I wish I could feel excited about that but for now I'm so worried about my husband and what he's going through. I know that there are people out there in much worse positions than we are. I am thankful that for now we can still put food on our table and clothes on our back. I'll just keep praying that we can weather this storm.

In 2001 just a few short months after we got married, my husband was diagnosed with cancer. I thought it was the end. However, he fought it and he won. In 2002, we nearly had to declare bankruptcy. We battled through it. We pulled out the whiteboard and wrote down the expenses we could cut out and the accounts we could get rid of to lower our debt. We got through it together.

We were told we could most likely never have children because of the cancer, but we got through that too and we now have a beautiful daughter. We proved the doctors wrong (with God's help, of course!). 2009 we are weathering the storms of this recession and somehow, someway we are going to get through this together. I just have to keep reminding myself of this.